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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Shameful Blogger...

Yes folks, I admit it, I'm the blogger of the worst kind. I've been horrible with keeping fresh new content on my blog. But as lame as it is, I have an excuse....work. I have been so overwhelmingly busy that even eating has become a chore. I long for my college days when I could skip class if I wanted and not have any serious repercussions.

I miss the days of just waking up when I felt like it and then walking to Bongo Java to enjoy a nice cup of coffee while sitting on the porch studying (people watching!).

Still as I reflect on my college experience and realize just how much I enjoyed that life - I wouldn't trade my current life for anything. Sometimes Satan tries to trick me into thinking that the grass is greener, but it's not, I know the truth in my heart. There is nothing more empowering than knowing that you live in truth - it took me a while to figure that out. C.S. Lewis helped me figure that out - God used "The Screwtape Letters" to reveal truth to me and it was life changing. I still go back and read that book to help nudge things back in perspective, it's powerful. Sometime I'd love to venture into the book that is "Mere Christianity," but I haven't gotten far enough along in my journey to understand the complex writing on the first try....someday though...

As the Christmas holiday is approaching, I urge you all to go out and do something in the community, help those less fortunate. Since we're limited on the things that we can do as a family, we adopt Angels from the Angel Tree at church. It's a great way to give back and serve God. You never know, the one thing that you buy for your Angel could change their life. Go ahead, step outside your comfort zone and do what God is challenging you to do - you won't regret it.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Just plain tired....

Do you ever get to that point where you are just so tired that you don't know if you're coming or going. That's where I am right now. Tired of everything.

I'm tired of people treating my husband like he's a monster because of a mistake that he made in 2001. He's not a child molester/pedophile/predator, whatever other name the media is calling sex offenders these day. He's a real human being that has feelings, has a family, shows remorse and means it, has a deep a tremendous love for Jesus Christ - he is a good man that did something stupid. Moreover, he's not a violent person - although, the great state of TN has classified him as a Violent Sex Offender, because his "victim" was only 15.

I remember being 15 and I also remember that I had the biggest crush ever on my 30 something boss - Tim - he reminded me of Jack Wagner ::::sigh:::: Anyway, I can still remember the night that I was standing at the counter writing something and he came up behind me and kissed my neck - HELLO! I know that if I were a little more brave like the rest of my friends (who were already having sex with 20 somethings) - something would've happened. But, alas, I was always the good little girl.

Anyway, all that to say, and definitely not to justify my husbands actions - but a 15 year old definitely knows right from wrong and they definitely know what is happening to them sexually and they definitely know how to provoke it. Throw in a little alcohol and you have my husband's situation. Again, not to justify it, but the whole thing was definitely NOT violent.

I'm just tired. So so so tired. Why are people so mean and hateful. What happened to people believing in second chances......it's making me lose faith in humanity.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Motherly Instinct?

I'm curious, once you hit a certain age in life does motherly instinct get lost on certain people?

Yesterday I witnessed something to which I was absolutely in awe of this woman's stupidity. Picture it Sicily...oh wait, too many Golden Girls reruns. Picture it, your local Kroger supermarket.....

I'm walking toward my car with my bags of groceries, when I witness a car driving a little erratically down the isle, down my isle. So the closer she gets to me, the further I step to the side, where I am practically running into the parked cars. She's finally next to me and of course I peek in crazy lady's car and my jaw practically hit the ground. She had probably a 6 month old baby in her left arm, leaning against the door, feeding the baby a bottle, meanwhile "driving" with her right arm.

Seriously, in what world is this normal?

Friday, October 07, 2005

Wanna. Go. Home.

NOT. FEELING. GOOD.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Really???

Aren't there better things to be pondering today, than whether or not Mr. Scientology is the father of Joey Potter's baby?

Seriously folks, I do not want to chat about those two around the watercooler. Can we please move on to the discussion about whether or not Nick and Jessica have really called it quits LOST!!! Did anyone watch that last night? This show just keeps getting better every episode. And Alias is on tonight, I can't wait!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Dr. Anyone?

So, yesterday I woke up with the lower left of my back aching and it became progressively worse as the day went on. By last night I could hardly move and it hurt to stand, sit, sleep...but I finally managed to rest a little. I'm still in pain this morning and to add to my misery my stomach is a mess, I'll spare you all the details, but suffice it to say, I'm going to do my best to not eat a thing today.

I hate going to Doctor's almost more than anything in the world, because I hate taking medicine. But, I'm to the point where I want need to go to the doctor. Problem is that my doctor just retired and now I'm without a physician. Any recommendations?

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Sweet!

I've just been added to nashvilleistalking.com :-) It seems to be a great blogging community that is extremely open-minded and not opposed to free speech - what a concept. Everyone seems to have good open discussion rather than "I'm right and you're wrong" sort of arguments.

sidebar: when i went to spellcheck my tiny paragraph above, it suggested i replace blogging with flogging. that made me giggle....

a new day....

After four extremely stressful days, my stomach is in knots and I have a headache that does not want to go away...

It basically all comes down to the fact that I've been trying to control a situation that I have absolutely no control over. As many times as I tell myself to hand it over to God, I still try to control things, foolishly thinking that I can fix things. It is during times like these that I am truly finding out what it means to be faithful and have a relationship with God. I've always thought that I had a great bond with God - but now I'm discovering the truth about what a REAL relationship with God means. Relying on HIM for everything, all the time, not just when it's convenient. I would be nothing right now without the love, peace and unending grace of our Lord Jesus Christ.

"Relying on God has to begin all over again EVERY day as if nothing yet had been done."
~~~C.S. Lewis